so late again

such a long time

and these days?

i just know I always look back those day

those cannot come back days

and i miss someone here

who will not come along like before,either...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I can say it's the blackest June I've ever had!

yeah...Blackest

And if I write out all the bad things

hehe...that would be a long list

 

ok,what I have to believe is that sunshine comes after rain

and good luck comes after bad luck!!!

your biggest treasure is that you are healthy

but I'm not!

whatever,I believe I'll be,soon...very soon!

我会努力的！

 

我不会让人看扁了！！！

Truly...

Thank you for being aound me always!

I don't know how to live my lonely life without you guys!

So lucky to have all of you,my friends!

I can hardly trust anyone!

It is said that today is cloudy

but seems it's going to clear up,and getting hot hot hot!!!!

Nothing can be predicted

Everything is heading towards a way we don't know...

 

So she asked:"Have you ever really loved someone?you want him very much,need him very much."

I thought there someone came up in my mind,but,:"yeah,of course,sure there was that someone..."

 

And the answer to the "why" question is always "there's no right person." which is indeed so.

 

And,it's not feeling good to say NO to others

 

And I admit I'm picky,yeah,I know I should not be that picky,but you know,only if I can control my heart

 

And I really hate myself for having no willpower,always a brief period of enthusiasm

 

And that's true you will be more interesting in things out of reach,so do people

 

And maybe it feels better to live in illusion

 

But it's gonna fade away gradually like the haze,as we actually are all live in reality without daydream...

 

 

 

 

 

 

Oh...MSN sucks!it's so hard to open a single one space

whatever,I finally end up my assignment...cheer!and there's only a little left now

and I know,always,I am an impatient person,very very extremly impatient one!!!

and meanwhile,I am also very dilatory,so everything will last a long time for me~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~(this long?)

I know they are way way extremly bad,but...

ok,no but,no excuse...what I have to say is,I will try to get better!!!haha

 

And I think for one thing,I'm really getting better,that is----I'm trying my best to keep my word!

yeah,as you know,it's actually a hard task (for me only?i don't know whether it is also hard for you guys?hehe)

I think I was not good at keeping my promise,sure,many people said so

Ankey once said,she hates people who doesn't keep their own words!and I was one of those

I didn't know about how deep her hate for this

I sometimes said"yeah,I will do this,I will do that.I will go where where",it turned out I didn't mean it but just say it

But somehow,I can feel her feelings now sometimes about something...

so,I just told myself,I should take respesonsibility about what i said

yeah,now,I should force myself to do something rather than shifting off...so hard!!!haha

so i think i'd better hold my tongue!SHUT UP!!!

haha,so guys,just pay attention of my words,you may get what you want!lol

 

ok,though no break for two weeks

what we get after the nightmare is bright sunshine!!!

I can sing with "Lene Marlin"now---"I'm ok,I really am now...."

oh,I love MAY days,so lovely,our golden weekend,ok,now it should get on my favorite monthS billboard!haha

just sit and wait,

oh no---just sleep and wait!

I want to sleep...

 

I was always thinking leave something here...but I don't know what's that,haha!

there are trivial matters in my daily life,but they make my life...I have to love it!

and actually,I'm doing fine,with simple life(now we don't call it BORING life,haha)

I've been trying to write down,anything make me laugh,smile,happy inside...no matter what

even if I just had a steam bread for breakfast the other day

I've found my lost keys and dining card

I knew Zhang Xueyou was coming to nanchang,but I cannot go to see him(...)

I got a beautiful alarm clock from my brother

we went out shopping,I got shoes,bags,and eating,eating,eating...

oh...and to know there is someone worse than me for this month's

WOW~~now,there are SO many happy things for everyday!!!

so I have to admit--I am a lucky girl,ain't I?haha

yeah,for all these HAPPYs,I'm really happy inside

but,everyone is down sometimes

so,I'm also feeling bad inside for something

whatever,it's ok,HAPPYs are much more than SAD,because there is no plural for SAD!:)

 

I finally know,to grow up is a course for compromising

I'm trying and will be doing fine!

 

I don't know from what time I became such a pessimistic person

Life is no longer a box of chocolate...

because it's not full of sweet things,at least chocolate is sweet to me

it's interesting...

when I'm miserable inside,I can also have a smile on my face

Human is such kind of duplicity animal...when you want to hide your feelings to people...

why not just cry when you want to cry,tell anything you want in your mind

like what you like,hate what you hate...do whatever```

but where is the fairyland?

 

maybe,pretend to be strong is only to cover up your frailty...

 

 

 

 

 

一个蛋糕，五口热开水，早餐结束

捧着杯子，手心渐暖，暖的发烫，放下杯子

想起了“人走茶凉”这句话---不喜欢！

于是我想：我不走就是了

             可是茶照样会凉

             守着它变凉？

             ---不干！

于是我又想：我还是不走

                不过我要把茶都到进肚子里

                随它凉去吧...

                反正它是在我胃里化开了

                随即暖遍全身

于是---我不停的喝，不停的喝，不停的喝...

然后---我进厕所了

最终---它还是走了，它急着要走，我便让它走了，反正是我让它走的~

可是---我暖过！

 

 

 

Bad Day－－Daniel Powter

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on
You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
(Oh.. Holiday..)
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day

 

 

 

 

 

 

yeah...it's valentine's day!and as you know...it means nothing to me!!!Fine~

several days ago,we had a party with some classmates from elementary school

and i didn't see them for almost 9 years...so long~~~

lucky i could still recognize them,haha

it was really good to see them again

they are funny and we had a good time together!!

so we are going to have barbecue togther tomorrow~~hope it's a good day!!!

 

And it reminds me something in elementary school

such as,a bully from a boy sitting next me...he bited me!!!5555555,it hurted!

but he wasn't at the party,or i would bite him back,haha!!

and punished by maths teacher...yeah...i am not good at maths!!!

and a classmate said he kissed me before,and the teacher saw his bad behaviour...

but i cant remember it at all...obviously,he was asked to the teacher's office!!!hehe

and a classmate from junior high said he saw me cried at least three times

OMG,i actually cried AT SCHOOL!!!I cant believe it and cant remember it either...

what did I do at school???haha

yeah...i had a lot of friends in junior high

but since we don't contact a lot now...

whatever...All good things must come to an end

and lucky i still have many good friends around me

they are funny,cute,lovely...

i like them...from the bottom of my heart!!haha

 

and there are a lot a lot cant remember...

I also did some bad things together with my brother,haha

but that was fun when i was a kid

and i think i was more beautiful and more cute then!!!haha

 

Maybe i should meet some friends in kindergaten,

only if i can remember what they look like!!!haha

Just feel like leaving something here,cuz it's new year's day,the first day of 2007,what should I say?Maybe I should make some new year resolution...come on,I won't,even think about it,haha,cuz I won't really do what I made!

 

ok,it's new year,but OMG,we only have what one day break,oh no,people all have three days,poor us!~but stay at home is kinda of boring,ok,I'll go back and meet freinds and talk about their new year's day!Mine is dull,as I've learned a lesson,I didn't go out with them,so instead I'm here,yes,I'd rather choose a quiet night here---with mom and dad!~haha...

 

some freind tells me he is in love...oh,ok,cool,there are more and more people in love.Yes,I said I am alone,I was not kidding,not to be surprised anymore,I really don't have!what am I doing?---o,I think I'm doing waiting things!5555555555....hehe

yes,I think he is lucky,to tell his feeling to the girl,and succeed at the first day of 2007,he must be very lucky for the whole year.Maybe I should go out and say ILOVEYOU to some cute guy,and I will have him.haha...joking,I must be very silly to tell such a cold joke,hehe.Anyway,I've been waiting waiting waiting...

 

oh,my new year wish---can my nose come to normal,I think my voice must be very magnetic because of the cold!

If this can realise at once,I'll make more wishes...